Words Hurt

It never seems to fail that I am touched by something posted by Proverbs 31 Ministries.  God has been using them in my life in a big way.

This came across my news feed today on FB:


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Proverbs 31 Ministries

Sometimes words can cut deep into our hearts!

We’ve all been wounded by negative comments from people in our past or even people in our present. Sometimes it’s a parent who criticizes us, or a friend who rejected us. When we let their harsh words sink into our hearts and stay, it can cause us to believe we’re not worth anything!

That kind of insecurity can make us settle for unhealthy relationships and also keep us from following God’s plan for our lives.

Are there negative words people have said to you - or about you - that have crippled your hope in God’s ability to do great things through you? I know I struggle with this at times. Maybe we should both put a stop to it and ask God to send people to help us know and believe what He says about us – instead of all the critical words we’ve listened to for so long.

If you need some encouragement today, click on Renee Swope's radio program at http://www.proverbs31.org/radio/critical-words-1-2013-03/

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I think I have struggled most of my life fighting the hurtful words of others.  They started at a young age and have continued on.  Critical words about my body screamed most loudly, but came also in words from bullies, parents, family members, siblings...

After recent events, I know I should not base my self worth on the way I am being treated...I DESERVE GOD'S ABSOLUTE BEST.  I am HIS child.  A PRINCESS of THE KING.

I hope you all remember that today as well... You are loved, you are beautiful, you are exactly who God created you to be, and you are chosen!

God Bless.

Letting God Down

I'm having one of those days.

It's one of those days where Satan is screaming at me with all his might, trying to drown out God's voice.

Because of some things that happened recently, I feel like I've been a big disappointment to God.  I let myself get sucked back into a situation because I still hadn't completely let go of what I wanted.  I saw it coming.  I had a bad feeling...and that feeling was correct.  I'm angry at myself.  I'm angry at this person.  And I feel like a total failure.

Now I need to move beyond the anger and the hurt.  I asked a friend today how I could move beyond feeling like I've let God down.  This is what she told me: "Have you asked the Lord's forgiveness? We all fail the Lord so many times every day without even thinking about it...We fall so short.  Your "failure" isn't great than any others.  It just makes His grace even that much more wonderful! :)"

I had so much regret that I hadn't even considered asking God for forgiveness.  So  I did and I'm also asking Him for His peace and for Him to free me from the bonds of this situation.  I'm so glad that when I fail - His wonderful grace covers us.



Proverbs 31 Ministries has made a huge impact in my life lately.  Today they posted this image...it always seems that just when I need it, God uses them to speak to my heart.

If I allowed Satan's words to drown out the voice of God, I could easily become dictated by these feelings of failure that he has been trying to plant in my life.  Praise the Lord for powerful words of wisdom!  Those feelings were an indicator that I needed to seek forgiveness with God, not a dictator of my life.

Recently this was posted through the online Bible study I have been participating in:

If it's not God's voice then I don't need to listen to it!  

I'm still learning and growing.  My walk with God won't be complete until the day I go to be with Him.  Praise the Lord for His goodness and mercy!

Weight Loss Part 2

Here are the new pics I promised. I took them on Sunday.

 Here I am!

And a side by side comparison: 

Finality

I had an amazing evening last night.  So much fun.  Things happened words were spoken and my heart was full.  But something was not quite right.  I had been sucked back into this "other reality."  I'm sick over the fact that I got drawn back in.  That I was lead on.  That what I thought was true, was not.  A part of me wants to cry...to curl up in my covers and not get out.  Another part of me is relieved.  So how do I move on?  Where do I go from here?  I'm not ready to face the rest of my "what-if's."  This is final.

God, please bring your peace into my life. Surround me with your love and your faithfulness.  Guard my heart against all that wages within.  I love you.  In your precious name I pray, Amen.

Proverbs 4:23 NASB
"Watch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flow the springs of life."